|Freshly made pizza totally from scratch.|
Beats the pants off a bought one.
I have been pondering the concept of success lately and am now a bit suspicious of my long held beliefs about success. You see, success nowadays seems to be so fleeting, so circumstantial, so costly, so subjective and ....well...just plain competitive.
|Freshly baked Romertopf bread cooling.|
For instance...success in a career will always come at the price of time away from home, time away from family and some serious educational debt - I am not so sure the slightly inflated paycheck is actually worth the effort in real terms. These days I take satisfaction in successfully completing the family's laundry - am I losing it?!
|I found my half-finished home-journal/grimoire. Now to find|
some nice secondhand leather to make the cover.
Anyways....so I used to think that once I was successful that I would experience a real sense of arrival, satisfaction, achievement and self esteem - but no. I just felt like I had climbed someone else's mountain instead. It was resentment that I felt not success. I also used to think that success would evaporate my non-specific anxiety about life and I would be very 'together' and confident. Again, computer said "no".
|Deep-fried eggs and bacon|
Who can resist?!
I always believed that once I was successful (at whatever) that I could relax, enjoy, relish, celebrate and share. I still want to believe that.
It is true that for many years I chased success in areas that were totally incongruent to who I was and my core values, so really I had Buckley's chance of ever truly feeling successful. Instead I felt like a fraud. Thus I am really starting afresh over the last couple of years in creating a list of goals and achievements that actually line up with my core values, not someone else's.......
|More freshly made pizza.|
Something I have begun noticing more is the things others say I am good at......these comments always take me by surprise because the things mentioned are not things I am working at being good at....and I do not even think I am good at them. Nevertheless, I have not brushed this observation aside because there probably is a lesson in other folk's observations. Maybe the answer to the success riddle is hidden somewhere in this.....time will tell.
|There is a very special story about this.....for another day.|
Another thing I have begun to mindfully take note of are activities and situations where I feel energised. This has been an interesting experiment as it has brought up some surprising results thus far. For instance: Why do I feel so energised when I am chatting to someone about creating a pathways for their success? Why do I feel so energized with 30 people sitting around my dinner table eating and drinking and being happy? Why do I feel so energized teaching people things (anything!)....I am meant to be a deep introvert and yet I am energised by these 'people' things. I feel SO successful whilst doing these things - weird much. I'll keep observing and see what manifests I think.
|Two more in the oven - you full yet? No?|
As you can tell my mind has about 100 'screens' open at the moment and the over-thinking warning light is flashing too....ha ha.
I wonder if your perception of success has changed across time?
|Another one ready to go into|
Take care folks and stay nice