|We harvested our first three cauliflowers|
yesterday. One has already been gifted.
FOR the best part of my life I lived by other's values, the values of institutions and values learned by friends and associates. I never stopped to think if these values were my core values. Admittedly, I had plenty of moments of blinding clarity but always promptly dismissed these moments as nonsense or heresy, dusted myself down and kept running hard up other people's mountains.
|Unshrinking a wool jumper that 'somebody' accidentally put|
into the dryer on a rainy day. We are soaking in cool water with one
cup of hair conditioner. We will then rinse, stretch gently and
dry it in the shade. Fingers crossed.
As life became incrementally more dissatisfying the more I found myself spending, eating, searching for answers, spending, eating, becoming depressed, eating, spending, trying new things, spending eating, becoming deeply anxious, spending eating ....did I mention spending and eating? The net result was I became deeply sad (expertly covered by a cheery smile), deeply in consumer debt (covered up by a semblance of "livin' the dream") and obese (nothing could cover that one up!). Of course there was a myriad of other psychological, social and physical types of dis-ease that incrementally manifested over a life time of living a life utterly disconnected from my true core values.
|Savoury mince on toast. The savoury|
mince was in the freezer pre-prepared
so it was just a matter of reheating
and serving on toast. Yum.
Quite a while back now (about 7 years) I stumbled over this article HERE. It took a while, but eventually I figured out what my core values were. The result really surprised me. After a life time of chasing the almighty dollar (unsuccessfully), chasing happiness, chasing religious knowledge, chasing friendships, chasing career (tried 4 different careers), chasing being influential, chasing lifestyles that others had and being utterly emotionally exhausted - this article turned a small light on for me.
|Home made yoghurt.|
I would have thought my core values would have included things like, power, influence, charisma, knowledge, leadership etc....all the things I used around a boardroom table or in an aspiring church leadership role. However, the following are my 5 core values....so very different from what I was chasing.
2. Having Enough
These core values had sat ignored, even disdained, for decades while I chased the opposite type of life. No wonder I was failing, sad, anxious and empty.....my life was a sum of falsehoods fueled by smug consumerism and ego.
|The $50 freezer that just goes and goes.|
The blackboard door adds a little fun.
Suffice to say that today I am certainly no paragon of virtue....ha! - the scars (even open wounds), remaining responsibilities and edifices of my former life are still being deconstructed, healed, new thoughts are being born, new actions are slowly replacing old ones and although the transformation is certain, some days I get to thinking if I have not just wasted a goodly portion of my life ?! But I guess a final 30 years of incrementally building a new life is not to be sneezed at.
I guess this is why I write here at Mr Home Maker. If even one person is encouraged to examine their life and make incremental, sustainable and (even better) regenerative changes - then my imperfect ramblings have been worthwhile.
Take care folks and stay nice.